Diligent Little Elf...

I know it's the Holiday season, and I should be spending it with friends and family ((with I have done here and there)), but I have been working hard to reestablish myself with the Sugar world... I've reset many profiles on different sites, and spent hours upon hours emailing, messaging, and talking back and forth with numerous men...
This time, it seems different, though... I'm not as stressed or pressed to find a potential now... It's all coming back to me now, and being patient ((and perhaps taking that break)) is working for me...

I have a few potentials lined up...

    Mr Traveler: Older, white male... beady little eyes... lol... He claims to have traveled the world... Private jets, etc... He doesn't reside in NY... so that's good for me... We all know I can't stomach a man who isn't nice on the eyes for long... He'd like to set up something where we'd meet only when he's in town--up to twice a month... I proposed my allowance, but he prefers p4p... we'll see... Since it's the holiday seaosn, and he's with  his family... we cannot meet up until mid January... Hopefully this doesn't fall through by then... I'd hate to have given quality attention to a potential for nothing... He's already asked about the things Santa forgot to drop off from my Christmas list... I mentioned the Canon camera and the MAC/Sephora giftcards... Hopefully, he'll send me a lil sum sumn to hold me over between now and January...

    Mr Capoeira: A younger, quite handsome, able-bodied black man... Says he was a professional dancer, but now teaches Capoeira... Love that ladies... :)  He seems more reserved, so I haven't pushed things on him as I've done with other Pots... He does seem experienced with this sort of relationship though... He doesn't seem to be looking for much and even brought up the idea of an allowance before I said anything... I know to be wary though... I offered to meet with him today, actually, but due to a spur of the moment Vegas trip, he won't be available till this weekend... No biggies, I told him to hit me up when he's back in town...

I did go ahead and install my hair as I wanted... Super lush and super long... A very different look for me... I'm coming into the new year with a new attitude, and hopefully it'll work out for the better...

Happy Sugar Dancing...
-CCSB

Starting Again...

Firstly... Hello again you lovely ladies... A very Merry Every and Anything it is you choose to celebrate this Holiday Season... I pray you get everything you wish for... Good company, health, wealth, and sugar opportunities... There's something magical about this time of year... I'd like to sprinkle a little bit of sparkley dust to each one of you...

I've decided not to buy anyone Christmas gifts this year. I'm saving up for a car, and it's killing me... but I know it'll be so worth it... I'm even going to do my best to not buy myself things either... It will be ever so hard, though... However, I do know what it is that I want...

My Christmas Wish List:

1. A Car... duh... 

2. Hot Tools Professional Dryer

3. Canon EOS Rebel T3i 600 18.0 MP Camera.... (((please please please....)))

4. MAC and Sephora Giftcards (of course)

5. A new weave... I'd love to try something new with my hair for the new year... I'm thinking long... and full... Maybe 16"... ((I will be doing this soon))

6. A smoking hot New Year's kiss...

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A recurring theme I've been reading baout on many of your blogs is that of school... Oh man... was this semester a doozy for me... I took on 18 credits, two sports, 3 clubs to manage, two part-time jobs... the list doesn't end there... Needless to say, I didn't do as well academically... Nothing to stress over though... It's over and I can't change anything now... Next year... will be different though... I hope you all aced your finals and grin everyy time you see that juicy A+ on your transcript...

As for my sugar conquests... They were non-existent this whole semester... I basically took a break... Since beginning this journey, I have experienced many things... Met wonderful people, and learned more about myself... I didn't know what I was getting into, and still have questions along the way...
I so don't mean to make this sound like an application essay for a scholarship...

I'm basically trying to say that I'm back... Ready to give it my all this time... I'm going to try things I was afraid to before, and be more agressive... I read all the time that "newbies never last more than a couple of months"... I refuse to fall into that stigma... I've already renewed subscriptions, and reached out to old POTs... Let's see where the cards fall this time...

Side note...

I don't know how many of you women know what this is... But I've been on a hair journey for the past year... I've watched my hair grow longer than it has been my whole life... I decided to do a 4 month stretch, and just today took out my box braids... I am so happy... Can't wait to relax... ((I said it was a side note))

Can't wait to get back into the groove of things with you all...

-CCSB

Okay... Time's-A-Tickin'

"I'm looking for love. Real love... Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love..." she says...

 I practically melted when Carrie Bradshaw told Alexander that... My favorite season for going out on dates... Showing my toned legs under sheer tights... And sitting in bed with mint-filled chocolate candies, watching seasons of Sex and the City... Don't you love Autumn...???

So, my prayers for a seasonal lovah have yet to be answered... My fingers are so sore, I can barely thread a needle... Masturbation can only go so far... And I'm running out of fantasies... Perhaps I should leave flyers around campus... Hold auditions or something of the sort...

The worst of it is that I'm secretly dying to have something like Carrie described... What woman doesn't see that in her future... Maybe it's in our programming... I'm not looking for a Prince Charming... He doesn't even have to be "tall, dark, or handsome"... I'll start with a nice, thick piece of hardware... Viens, and a little curve wouldn't be too much to ask... no???

All I know is that both my heart, and my kitty are in need of some serious male attention... 

I'm going crazy...

-CCSB

...Getting hard...

It's getting cooler out... The air, more fresh and crisp... Perfect date weather... I'm getting hornier and hornier, too, it seems... If I can't find a man to roll around with soon... I'm going to go crazy...

-CCSB

The Clock Struck 12...

Since school has started for me, I've been fairly busy with my real life... Everything has to be scheduled right down to the exact time, otherwise I won't be able to do it... And even then, there's still room for chaos.... I told myself, no sugar livin' until I can tone some things down a bit...

And just by happenstance, I met a great guy... Mr BIG brought back the excitement I felt in the summer... For a few weeks, I was almost like Cinderella again... Primping, and reading blogs... Setting dates, and simply imagining how great it'd be to finally work out some sort of arrangement with a guy, that I actually liked, nonetheless...

But just like in the fairy-tale... The clock struck 12, and I've been rid of my pretty dress and fabulous shoes... Only this time, Mr BIG doesn't really want anything to do with me right now...

Short and sweet, I messed up... We had a date set for last week, and I cancelled due to an emergency reschedule... I know it was messed up, but I couldn't not do that thing... Low and behold now, he's pretty much lost interest, and I'm back to where I was about a month ago... Busy, always studying, and BROKE... It really does suck, but what can ya do???

At least, I learned a good one for the road... Don't get excited about spur-of-the-moment chances...

-CCSB

Sometimes It's Just Too Much...

We all know that living these double lives takes a toll on us all... Sometimes, the solid line blurs a bit, and discerning between the two becomes just a little more difficult... What happens when we have to choose between the two...???

Do you pick the Box of Reality...??? Because it's the norm... What you've known, and can rely on???

Or do you choose the Box o Sweets...??? Never quite sure what flavour you'll get, but it's an adventure all the same...??? With every bite, you're experiencing something exotic, new, and refreshing...

***Well, real life's been a pain... I have a job interview set up for tomorrow... Had another yesterday, and another Monday... ((a girl's gotta have Funds right???)) Tons of extra activities too... But they're all kind of cutting into my Sugar World's time...

I was supposed to go on my second date with Mr Big tomorrow night... But, because of my busy RL, there was a conflict... It makes me sad, because I really did want to see him again... But reality will be there when he won't be... We'll see if he understands...

Hope all of you wonderful women don't have lives as stressful as my own... And that the sweet, sticky, and sugary gum drops rain upon you from above...

-CCSB

It's All Coming Back To Me Now...

I had my first date with the gentleman i mentioned in a previous post... I think I'll call him Mr BIG... We met at a little bar in the city... I was surprised to find a quite handsome man... I don't know why I was expecting some old, greyed, balding fellah with a portable oxygen tank alongside him... LOL... (I was....)

***Firstly ladies... I'm not a big drinker... So, wine, beer, etc... Not really my thing...***

Overall, I had a nice time... He seemed more nervous, though, than I... The atmosphere was relaxing, and fairly young... We talked about our past endeavors... The good and the just-plain-ugly... Eventually, it came up--what we were both looking for from each other...

Upon meeting him, I didn't really expect this relationship to be of that kind. I figured it'd be more of a mentor/mentee thing... But I surely cannot resist the offer from Mr BIG... He knows what he's doing, and everything was upfront... He's not into allowances... ((Doesn't that just break your hearts, ladies???)) And I'd be able to meet once a week... I mentioned that I would like an allowance... The terms... to come, I'm sure...

*** I could have sworn, while sitting in a small courtyard, afterwards... That Mr BIG leaned in to try to kiss me... It might have been in my mind... I simply leaned back, and stared at him from above my glasses... What was he doing? Was it a test? Did he really think I'd let him, or anyone else, for that matter, kiss me like that--on the first date??? I don't know... maybe it was the beers... maybe it was the nice, crisp, chill in the air... But that move had me on alert... Mr BIG did get a little touchy-feely after leaving the bar... But I simply assumed he was just excited about the prospect of me...

During the date, he noticed my body... Mr BIG told me he loved how strong I was...
***Ladies, I am a competitive cheerleader, and being in shape is duper important for that***
We talked about the whole Black/White thing... compared being with other races... He loves himself some chocolate... :)  Who wouldn't want some...???

On another note, he did hint at "making it up to me for missing my birthday"... :)  I casually mentioned that a nice, new Nook would be great to have... as a college student... And that having my textbooks paid for would be amazing... Since they're all about $150-$200 each... Just sayin'...

We'll see...

I'm actually glad that we met... I was falling off the bandwagon, and it was a nice way to ease back into this double life... Mr BIG seems promising, and best of all... There's chemistry... So this relationship just might the best of both worlds... Easy-going dates... fun... great chemistry... AND the funds!!!

We have another date scheduled for next week.... Don't know what we're to do, but I'll keep you all posted...

-CCSB

Waiting to Exhale...

Ladies... we are all looking for that sugary perfection... That great relationship(s) where you can have fun, be in great (handsome) company, and still end up with some $$$ in your bank account... And we work ever so hard... Making sure our bodies are in tip-top shape... Blowing our hair out into great volumes... Walking tall in our pencil skirts and stilettos... The double lives we live bring great pleasure and excitement to us... while driving us mad at the same time...

Although I'm on a slight hiatus from my alternate life... My main life has kind of fallen off also... Ladies... I don't have a man... And lately, it's been driving me crazy... Now, It could just be because the weather is getting nicer... Cool and crisp... leaves changing beautifully... But something in me is going crazy... I need a man... Not simply for the dates... but for the sex...

I admit, it has been a while for me... And almost every night, I find myself tossing and turning underneath my covers...

Sugar Circle:
Ladies, let's hear it... How do you deal with lack of sex...? Is it an issue for you...? Are you having sex with your SDs...? If so, how do you like that, compared to sex with normal men...? And, when is masturbation enough...?

-CCSB

An Unexpected Chance...

Well, ladies...

Even though I'm completely swamped with my RL right now... Somehow, someway... I've found myself a new POT... Can't say too much about him now, except that he's very much experienced, and I'm both anxious and nervously afraid to meet him... I have the date set for sometime soon... And being out of the loop has me thrown...

I feel like it's the beginning all over again... So, ladies... help me out... Any tips, tricks, or magic cards for me??? Let's have it... because I'm a fish out of water, and this guy has been swimming around for a loooonnnnngggg time...

-CCSB

I'm Falling and I Can't Find My Legs...

Since school started, back in August... I've slowly turned from the life of sugar... I'm super busy... School is serious this semester... I'm taking 7 classes... Tennis season has been super harsh--bad weather sucks. And being a cheerleader makes it no easier... Not to mention having a job, and I'm currently looking for another...

I miss the sugary life... I miss sitting on my bed indian-style and searching on my laptop through profiles... rifling through messages... and updating pictures... for HOURS... I miss the nervous excited feeling right before a date... Or the promise of another bill being paid... I miss reading the blogs of you fabulous women and men...

*sigh*

Maybe when it gets a little later in the semester... Perhaps in the winter, I'll get back into the life... Right now, though... I just can't... If I could pause time then sure... But, for now... I'll just be checking in every now and again...

-CCSB