I Wonder...

 I was sitting at my laptop, working on some advanced physics homework, and a thought popped into my head...

I thought of Mr MD and how things just ended with him... I remember reading another SBs blog, and she was saying something like "I don't have to have sex with my guy... blah blah". I had sex with him... but it was completely my choice... I didn't feel pressured into it, and I didn't feel obliged... It was casual... NSA... Within that same week, he poofed... And then came back with the whole 'it's not you, it's me....' I mean, couldn't I, at least, have gotten the rest of my allowance for the month before you jump ship...??? Damn, he just hit it n quit it... I remember the first time we had a date, Mr MD and I... He mentioned that he hated giving everything up front for the chance of the person flaking...  *kudos* and I'm just pulling the wool from my eyes...

On another note... Two of my closest friends want in... I've told them a couple of stories here, and there... and somehow, they both, within the same week have asked me to help them get into it.... Not that I'm so darned successful as a SB...  ((ahem Mr MD)). I'm not sure how I feel about it though... Tell me ladies and David... Should I help em get started...? or no...


CCSB

Ugh.... Sugar Woes

Mr MD shot me an email this evening... He's back in town, which I am so happy about... I have missed him in these two weeks...

But he basically broke things off with me... His RL is getting to be a bit much, and he needs time to get his life sorted... or something like that... idk

It sucks... I've lost both of my guys... and haven't gotten anything close to what I was asking for...   **sigh**

SO.... I'm back on the hunt... Messaging guys, emailing, first dating... -__-  I'm 'loving' it...

broke, broke, broke...


sooo not fun...


CCSB

Bye Bye, Blue Bird...

So, things with Mr Traveler and I are pretty much done...

It's been a while since I've emailed him, and I guess he was beginning to feel it... He was so used to getting two or three flirty, cute messages a day... Perhaps he wanted something like an emotional affair since the distance was a bit much for the two of us... No offense, buddy, but that's a freaking commitment... AND! I wasn't getting anything close to what I was asking for... No allowance, and gifts randomly... *sigh*

So, it's been about 2-3 weeks of neglect for him... I'm busy, and trying to do my own... I got an email from him this morning and he sounded like that thing... "whah.. whah...whahhhhhh"

     He didn't want things to simply 'fade' and wanted to know if the distance was too much for me, and if I wanted to find someone closer...

Look, the distance isn't an issue for me... He was the one traveling... And what made him think I was being exclusive to him...???

I simply told Mr Traveler that we should play it by ear... That he was a great guy, and that I genuinely liked him ((I do...)), but since the distance was a big factor for him, that we should meet only when he would be in town... Au lieu de trying to plan and schedule trips, etc... Our schedules are practically impossible, and it's less stress on him... He agreed and that was that...

Basically, this means, that we're done... I don't have to respond to your emails as much... I'm surely not getting that allowance I asked for... And that we'd only meet when he was in town, and it fit my schedule...

Whatever...


Mr MD is out of town... I kind of miss him... Kind of... He should be back soon... And then we can continue our 'thing'... I haven yet to receive my full allowance from him... Nobody likes tiny installments... I'd like a "large, lump sum"... cash... But, we'll see... Cmon back to me, MD!!!



CCSB

Finally...

I had my 3rd or 4th date with Mr MD this past weekend... Unfortunately, I was 45 minutes late...
*sigh*
I sooo need a new watch...

We met in the city, and walked over to a tiny cafe... latin music, good food, good drinks.... Not so good chocolate cake... LOL

He actually gave me a small portion of my set allowance in the beginning of the date... Less than 1/3... I was surprised, but still, dissappointed... Later on the date, i asked why only the amount, and he insisted that I said that I wanted the allowance in the set increments...  * If it were up to me, I'd say 'Let's have it all at once, or in two installments.' * Still, I had a good time... Somehow we ended up having sex, afterwards... I was never really one for receiving oral, and he didn't prove to me otherwise... I just laid there... Watching Caesar Millan snapping at little dogs... The sex was...   eh ... But hey, sexual chemistry can be worked on... We are supposed to meet 1x every week, but this coming week, he won't be in town... I was sad... Partly because we always have a nice time, and partly, because I wouldn't be getting another part of my allowance...

((Does this mean I get double the week after next? How do I ask for the rest of my allowance without sounding too much 'aboutthemoney'?))

Valentine's was pretty uneventful for me... School, etc... I had lunch with my two closest friends--which was fun... I'm not into the hype, I guess...

This week is pretty dry... I'm almost broke after buying some more supplies for school...

Mr Traveler is trying to get to Ny next week for super short stays... I think two random days during the middle of the week... He asked if I might be free, but going would compromise my studies... I have classes those nights, and would have to miss them in order to meet him... I haven't yet received much from him... In fact, the two of them, MD and Traveler have given me about the same amount--go figure--since being involved. I don't think I can put my GPA on the line for a little money... Especially if it isn't what I'm asking for...

xoxo

CCSB

Update: Dates & Such...

So, I had my second date with Mr Traveler earlier this week... it was beyond long over-due... I added to my horrible attendance streak, and was 2 HOURS LATE!!! ((so embarrassed to admit it)) I swear the craziest things happen to me though...
He wasn't angry though... His hotel was near the movie theatre we planned on going to... Since I was late, we missed the show I wanted to see, and opted for Man On a Ledge... I was surprised that I liked it...
Mr Traveler, despite my expectations, was a complete gentleman... He didn't make one move on me... It was weird, because I was expecting the worst... Just like before, he gave me a little goody-bag, that had more Visa Gift cards and some chocolate...

((people, I am a serious chocolate lover))

It was nice, but at the same time... I can only do so much with a gift card... I prefer cash... Maybe I'll let him know that for the future... if we have one... I didn't end it with him, like I planned... *sigh*

 I know that Mr MD and I are supposed to have something going on, but I have yet to receive anything from him, and don't want to burn bridges before counting my eggs... ((or one of those old proverbs--lol)). At the end of the movie, we hugged, and I skipped on down the subway steps... for my 2 hour ride back to the burbs...

I have another date with Mr MD tomorrow... I always make it a duty not to be late with him... He's a stickler... lol... We're supposed to go and check out a new cafe... I pray chocolate is involved... I also hope to get part of my allowance... The last date we had, last week, was great... Cute, but crowded dessert place.. Nice drinks... but it ended weird... He said he had my sugar, but ended up not giving it to me... -__- I was so angry about that... Hopefully, I get it tomorrow, because I am BROKE!!! textbooks have practically eaten up everything I have...

On another note... I've been so freaking horny as of late... One of these men better get on it... because I just might move on to younger, cuter things...

CCSB


i will not be late
i will not be late
i will not be late
i will not be late

Sugar Frustrations...

So, you all know what I'm looking for. Nothing out of line or over the top... I'm not asking for my SDs to buy me thousand-dollar shoes or to make a down payment on a house for me... I'm a simple girl, with simple needs... I make that all clear early so that there's no room for misunderstandings down the line...

But what do these men want from us??? Is it just our company...??? Someone to talk to...??? A beautiful young woman to spend time with after a hard day at work...??? The opportunity to make us giddy with excitement with their money and gifts...??? Potential life partners...??? Or, simply sex...???

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Lately, this has been a big question for me... What Do These Men Want? I should just call Mel Gibson and ask, but I'm sure he's busy... lol

I don't know about you all, but I find that talking about things... Being open and honest with your feelings and thoughts early on only helps in pretty much every situation--Sugar relationships, specifically... We enter these things with wants, needs, and expectations from each other in the back of our minds...

When I'm meeting a potential SD, I do my best to let him know what I want... And I only expect him to do the same... Tell me what you want, and I will do my best, if I find it within me, to get it done for you--with a sweet smile on my face... You are the one who's paying for my time and attention, no??? If you want a back rub every week, tell me... A shrink--to listen to you moan about your life, sure... ((though I am far from qualified)) If you want to have sex with me, let me know... If you're an attractive guy, and things feel right, okay... But don't simply assume, I'm thinking it... Maybe it hasn't crossed my mind... How can anyone know what you want if you don't specify it for them??? And you can't be angry with a girl for not guessing the right card...

 Being new in this world is daunting enough... I'm learning quickly... but I'm no mind-reader... Open your mouth, and tell me... We'll talk about it, and move on from there... You never know, I might just be into it...



Men...smh



CCSB

College Sugar Baby...

We all want the Louboutins... The Coach bags, and Versace dresses... It's the lush and expensive items we see when flipping through the pages of VOGUE that make our mouths water with lust... And it's these men that can give them to us... You bat your pretty lashes, and flash a bashful smile... Their hearts melt and their cash comes out...

Well, NewsFlash!!!

I'm in college, and all I need, besides a good amount in savings is:

• My damned textbooks paid in full
• My cell phone bill paid on time every month
• My student loans paid for
• Pocket money for sudden expenses
• etc...

...nowhere on my list does it have shoes, or hand bags, or any of those other material things... I'm practical, and know what I need to survive right now... Like I said before... I damned sure cannot pay for that $200 Chemistry textbook with a pair of pretty shoes... Maybe in the future, when all of these college expenses are out of sight, mind, and out of my account... I'll take it there... But for now... I'm just a college gal looking for a guy to get me through the financial burdens of school...  

Is that too much to ask...???

CCSB

ps: I can't lie... There are some things that would simply place the cherry in my Manhattan..

• The rose gold Michael Kors Large Runway Double Glitz Watch  ((a girl's gotta have a quality watch to get to her classes on time, no...???  :}  ))

• A Nook Tablet, along with all of the accessories  ((nobody wants to have to carry around 5 textbooks all over campus, do they???  ))

:}

Letting Go...

Mr Traveler is such a nice guy... I can tell he seriously just wants someone to talk to... A beautiful woman to carry around like a nice handbag...

I can also tell he just wants to get in my pants...

-__-

...can you say "Not Happening???"

I was advised to let him off easily... To simply let him know that it wasn't in our future... Not to waste his or my time... But I don't know... He's such a nice guy, and I can't help but wonder what he'll gift me on our upcoming date next week... No matter what, even if it's my full allowance, cash ((a girl can dream, can't she?)), I'm going to end it with him... I sent him an email today, explaining that I didn't see us being together sexually... He simply said "I'm patient..."

Either way, buddy... it'll never happen... There's absolutely nothing attractive about ya... maybe your gifts are... but still, it's not enough... 

Also, since, MD and I (I've renamed him) are soon to begin our sugar relationship together, I feel I should focus my attention to one and the more beneficial relationship... Mr Traveler has only given me a few hundred bucks, flowers, gifts, etc... It was all lovely and everything, but I can't pay my soon due phone bill, or buy my much needed Chemistry text books with flowers and chocolate, can I...???

MD is simply offering what I want... So, I'll put my time and energy into someone who is going to benefit me... Besides, he's better company, and I feel much more comfortable around him...

Off to class... Learning about 'The Dancing Molecules'

-__-


CCSB

Trying Something New...

Just got in from a nice lunch date with an old potential... I've always liked him, and somehow messed it up in the past... Looks like we have an agreed to get the arrangement going... I'm excited and glad... At least I like the guy, and he's actually kind of attractive--even though he seems extremely insecure about himself... We "officially start" next week... Nothing more to be said about it... for now...

:}

CCSB


ps: I officially love Cosmos...

Cover Your Tracks...

The first rule of it all... Anonymity...

How could I have been so stupid to have not made sure...

I just asked Mr Traveler to send me an eGift card and to my surprise, he did...

Quickly after, he sent me a link to my other blog... My personal blog...

You cannot imagine the horror I felt... He added, "You're so cute..." Omfg... I deleted it so fast... I figure, if I want to do this sugar thing for real, the other blog shouldn't compromise this...

I've done a Google search for myself, and found so many things. God damn this internet saving everything you've ever done... I've just deleted like 6 accounts, a blog, and privated about 12-13 photo albums...

ugh...


***kudos to me, though, for having the guts to straight forward ask him for the card... Can't wait to use it...

CCSB