Okay... Time's-A-Tickin'

"I'm looking for love. Real love... Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love..." she says...

 I practically melted when Carrie Bradshaw told Alexander that... My favorite season for going out on dates... Showing my toned legs under sheer tights... And sitting in bed with mint-filled chocolate candies, watching seasons of Sex and the City... Don't you love Autumn...???

So, my prayers for a seasonal lovah have yet to be answered... My fingers are so sore, I can barely thread a needle... Masturbation can only go so far... And I'm running out of fantasies... Perhaps I should leave flyers around campus... Hold auditions or something of the sort...

The worst of it is that I'm secretly dying to have something like Carrie described... What woman doesn't see that in her future... Maybe it's in our programming... I'm not looking for a Prince Charming... He doesn't even have to be "tall, dark, or handsome"... I'll start with a nice, thick piece of hardware... Viens, and a little curve wouldn't be too much to ask... no???

All I know is that both my heart, and my kitty are in need of some serious male attention... 

I'm going crazy...

-CCSB

...Getting hard...

It's getting cooler out... The air, more fresh and crisp... Perfect date weather... I'm getting hornier and hornier, too, it seems... If I can't find a man to roll around with soon... I'm going to go crazy...

-CCSB

The Clock Struck 12...

Since school has started for me, I've been fairly busy with my real life... Everything has to be scheduled right down to the exact time, otherwise I won't be able to do it... And even then, there's still room for chaos.... I told myself, no sugar livin' until I can tone some things down a bit...

And just by happenstance, I met a great guy... Mr BIG brought back the excitement I felt in the summer... For a few weeks, I was almost like Cinderella again... Primping, and reading blogs... Setting dates, and simply imagining how great it'd be to finally work out some sort of arrangement with a guy, that I actually liked, nonetheless...

But just like in the fairy-tale... The clock struck 12, and I've been rid of my pretty dress and fabulous shoes... Only this time, Mr BIG doesn't really want anything to do with me right now...

Short and sweet, I messed up... We had a date set for last week, and I cancelled due to an emergency reschedule... I know it was messed up, but I couldn't not do that thing... Low and behold now, he's pretty much lost interest, and I'm back to where I was about a month ago... Busy, always studying, and BROKE... It really does suck, but what can ya do???

At least, I learned a good one for the road... Don't get excited about spur-of-the-moment chances...

-CCSB

Sometimes It's Just Too Much...

We all know that living these double lives takes a toll on us all... Sometimes, the solid line blurs a bit, and discerning between the two becomes just a little more difficult... What happens when we have to choose between the two...???

Do you pick the Box of Reality...??? Because it's the norm... What you've known, and can rely on???

Or do you choose the Box o Sweets...??? Never quite sure what flavour you'll get, but it's an adventure all the same...??? With every bite, you're experiencing something exotic, new, and refreshing...

***Well, real life's been a pain... I have a job interview set up for tomorrow... Had another yesterday, and another Monday... ((a girl's gotta have Funds right???)) Tons of extra activities too... But they're all kind of cutting into my Sugar World's time...

I was supposed to go on my second date with Mr Big tomorrow night... But, because of my busy RL, there was a conflict... It makes me sad, because I really did want to see him again... But reality will be there when he won't be... We'll see if he understands...

Hope all of you wonderful women don't have lives as stressful as my own... And that the sweet, sticky, and sugary gum drops rain upon you from above...

-CCSB

It's All Coming Back To Me Now...

I had my first date with the gentleman i mentioned in a previous post... I think I'll call him Mr BIG... We met at a little bar in the city... I was surprised to find a quite handsome man... I don't know why I was expecting some old, greyed, balding fellah with a portable oxygen tank alongside him... LOL... (I was....)

***Firstly ladies... I'm not a big drinker... So, wine, beer, etc... Not really my thing...***

Overall, I had a nice time... He seemed more nervous, though, than I... The atmosphere was relaxing, and fairly young... We talked about our past endeavors... The good and the just-plain-ugly... Eventually, it came up--what we were both looking for from each other...

Upon meeting him, I didn't really expect this relationship to be of that kind. I figured it'd be more of a mentor/mentee thing... But I surely cannot resist the offer from Mr BIG... He knows what he's doing, and everything was upfront... He's not into allowances... ((Doesn't that just break your hearts, ladies???)) And I'd be able to meet once a week... I mentioned that I would like an allowance... The terms... to come, I'm sure...

*** I could have sworn, while sitting in a small courtyard, afterwards... That Mr BIG leaned in to try to kiss me... It might have been in my mind... I simply leaned back, and stared at him from above my glasses... What was he doing? Was it a test? Did he really think I'd let him, or anyone else, for that matter, kiss me like that--on the first date??? I don't know... maybe it was the beers... maybe it was the nice, crisp, chill in the air... But that move had me on alert... Mr BIG did get a little touchy-feely after leaving the bar... But I simply assumed he was just excited about the prospect of me...

During the date, he noticed my body... Mr BIG told me he loved how strong I was...
***Ladies, I am a competitive cheerleader, and being in shape is duper important for that***
We talked about the whole Black/White thing... compared being with other races... He loves himself some chocolate... :)  Who wouldn't want some...???

On another note, he did hint at "making it up to me for missing my birthday"... :)  I casually mentioned that a nice, new Nook would be great to have... as a college student... And that having my textbooks paid for would be amazing... Since they're all about $150-$200 each... Just sayin'...

We'll see...

I'm actually glad that we met... I was falling off the bandwagon, and it was a nice way to ease back into this double life... Mr BIG seems promising, and best of all... There's chemistry... So this relationship just might the best of both worlds... Easy-going dates... fun... great chemistry... AND the funds!!!

We have another date scheduled for next week.... Don't know what we're to do, but I'll keep you all posted...

-CCSB

Waiting to Exhale...

Ladies... we are all looking for that sugary perfection... That great relationship(s) where you can have fun, be in great (handsome) company, and still end up with some $$$ in your bank account... And we work ever so hard... Making sure our bodies are in tip-top shape... Blowing our hair out into great volumes... Walking tall in our pencil skirts and stilettos... The double lives we live bring great pleasure and excitement to us... while driving us mad at the same time...

Although I'm on a slight hiatus from my alternate life... My main life has kind of fallen off also... Ladies... I don't have a man... And lately, it's been driving me crazy... Now, It could just be because the weather is getting nicer... Cool and crisp... leaves changing beautifully... But something in me is going crazy... I need a man... Not simply for the dates... but for the sex...

I admit, it has been a while for me... And almost every night, I find myself tossing and turning underneath my covers...

Sugar Circle:
Ladies, let's hear it... How do you deal with lack of sex...? Is it an issue for you...? Are you having sex with your SDs...? If so, how do you like that, compared to sex with normal men...? And, when is masturbation enough...?

-CCSB

An Unexpected Chance...

Well, ladies...

Even though I'm completely swamped with my RL right now... Somehow, someway... I've found myself a new POT... Can't say too much about him now, except that he's very much experienced, and I'm both anxious and nervously afraid to meet him... I have the date set for sometime soon... And being out of the loop has me thrown...

I feel like it's the beginning all over again... So, ladies... help me out... Any tips, tricks, or magic cards for me??? Let's have it... because I'm a fish out of water, and this guy has been swimming around for a loooonnnnngggg time...

-CCSB

I'm Falling and I Can't Find My Legs...

Since school started, back in August... I've slowly turned from the life of sugar... I'm super busy... School is serious this semester... I'm taking 7 classes... Tennis season has been super harsh--bad weather sucks. And being a cheerleader makes it no easier... Not to mention having a job, and I'm currently looking for another...

I miss the sugary life... I miss sitting on my bed indian-style and searching on my laptop through profiles... rifling through messages... and updating pictures... for HOURS... I miss the nervous excited feeling right before a date... Or the promise of another bill being paid... I miss reading the blogs of you fabulous women and men...

*sigh*

Maybe when it gets a little later in the semester... Perhaps in the winter, I'll get back into the life... Right now, though... I just can't... If I could pause time then sure... But, for now... I'll just be checking in every now and again...

-CCSB

Books, Pencils, Pigtales, and Short Skirts...

RIIIIIINNNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



It's back to school for my sweet, chocolate ass...
I'm back to crowded hallways, starving in the library, long lines, and sleepless nights... But it's what I've got to do...

Basically, I'm the "all achiever"... Thus, I'm sticking my head in anything and everything I can possibly get into. I'm one of the captains of my college's competitive cheer squad, on the tennis team, in the pre med club, french club, art club, student activities club... I'm working two jobs, and looking for another, and finally I've decided to load myself with 18 credits for the semester (the maximum). Saying "I'll be busy" would definitely be an understatement. But, this is where, and how I thrive. Somehow, I just do well, with all the pressure... And it'll give me a break from my SB goals...

Not to say that I've let it go, because I haven't, but I think now, that this should be good for me...I need to firstly get me under control, before I go tackling this... I need to have only the best head on my shoulders, so I can be at my best when trying to snag me a good SD... I have been searching still... But not as viciously as before... I've signed up for a few more sites, but I'm taking it slow... I've only been checking my email 1x a day... compared to the 15-20x a day I used to...

***
I have, however, been on 7 dates in the past week... Not with Pots... but with guys that I figure I'll practice on in the meantime... I've decided to take some advice from the lovely Creole, and see if I can work my magic on guys closer to my age... If I can get them to get me things, then I'll be all the more ready to get what I want from my future SDs...

Firstly, the TruckDriver... Simple huh... lol... I met him parhazard, in a cab on the way home, and he got my number... We went out last week, and he took me to a nice, chic lounge/pool hall... He's older, 36, but I wasn't phased by that at all... He's tall, chocolatey dark, and very much handsome... Shaved head, and a strong back... Single, and no kids... I had a great time with him, but I got a little inkling that he was a little too interested in my body, and not my mind... So I'm going to keep him on a long leash... Maybe, I can get him to pay for my driving test... It's coming up soon, and he offered to give me a few lessons in his nice Audi...

Next we have BrownEyes... I met him at the club, and gave him my Google Voice # when he asked... Surprisingly, he turned out to be a great couple of dates... We went to eat at a sushi place near me... ((my first time with sushi--can't say I love it)) He saw me pushing the food around, and offered to take me to a great burger place... I loved it... He's easy going, and well-off for his age... Only 28... But super polite, and not creepy in any way... I marked him off as a creeper because I met him at the club... We'll see his true stripes of spots soon...
We went on a second date to the movies... That just happened to be by the mall... I offered to pick a movie, and purposely chose one that was a couple hours off... Hence, we had nothing to do but walk around the mall... I stopped into an ALDO, and tried some shoes on... Ladies... BrownEyes liked them so much, he paid for them... They weren't expensive Louboutins, but that made my day... $60 shoes... I'll take any pair of shoes for free... I was so giddy afterwards... The movie was a bore, I'd seen Crazy, Stupid, Love so many times already... On my way home, I gave BrownEyes a little kiss on the cheek, and practically skipped on home... New shoes in hand...

I had another date with another guy, HeadHunter... He actually works at the same hospital my mother works in... but in Human Resources... ((I've already inquired for a position)) He's 36, and cute... Met him on CL.com which is really different for me. Super corn ball, and it's so cute... He took me to Central Park and we walked around a bit... ((thank the Lawd I had flats on))... The stroll was nice, easy going, and it was nice not eating for a change... HeadHunter says he was raised by his 6 older sisters and I was afraid he could read me completely... Afterwards, we went to the wax Museum, on 42nd, and had a blast posing and taking pics with the figures... It was fun, and relaxing to be myself... ((but not all of myself))... I didn't get anything but money for a cab ride back home... But I'll keep him around...

***Going out on these dates were a good idea for me... Just when I was doubting my natural, quick wit, charm, and beauty... they've reminded me that if I don't have confidence in myself... No guy... let alone a SD will...

-CCSB

Dry Spell...

I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave around, and cast beautiful, plentiful showers of sugar upon sugar land...

...Unfortunately for me, this is far from ever happening...

After my last date, with Mr Fix-It, it seems I have less of a drive to fight for this... Perhaps it's because my RealLife id  kicking in... I have tennis practice 6 days a week, for 5 hours a day... And then cheerleading (I am a competitive cheer gal) butts itself into my schedule... That's almost like a part-time job in itself... I'm super tired, and busy... Not to mention, school starts in a couple of days...

*sigh*

It's just a lot... But I don't want to leave Candy Land... I love everything it has to offer, and the excitement. The fact that it's something new... The wonderful and supportive women out there...

I've been trying...but it seems I'm having poor luck in finding anyone lately... No one seems interested... I'm taking the initiative in messaging people... But not much of a bite... It makes me think, perhaps my profile needs an updating... I don't know... I'm just down in the dumps...

I'm also looking for new sites to check out... Any options, let me know...

But, yes... It's all dry and baron here... This cookie needs some warm, sweet milk...

-CCSB