The Clock Struck 12...

Since school has started for me, I've been fairly busy with my real life... Everything has to be scheduled right down to the exact time, otherwise I won't be able to do it... And even then, there's still room for chaos.... I told myself, no sugar livin' until I can tone some things down a bit...

And just by happenstance, I met a great guy... Mr BIG brought back the excitement I felt in the summer... For a few weeks, I was almost like Cinderella again... Primping, and reading blogs... Setting dates, and simply imagining how great it'd be to finally work out some sort of arrangement with a guy, that I actually liked, nonetheless...

But just like in the fairy-tale... The clock struck 12, and I've been rid of my pretty dress and fabulous shoes... Only this time, Mr BIG doesn't really want anything to do with me right now...

Short and sweet, I messed up... We had a date set for last week, and I cancelled due to an emergency reschedule... I know it was messed up, but I couldn't not do that thing... Low and behold now, he's pretty much lost interest, and I'm back to where I was about a month ago... Busy, always studying, and BROKE... It really does suck, but what can ya do???

At least, I learned a good one for the road... Don't get excited about spur-of-the-moment chances...

-CCSB

Sometimes It's Just Too Much...

We all know that living these double lives takes a toll on us all... Sometimes, the solid line blurs a bit, and discerning between the two becomes just a little more difficult... What happens when we have to choose between the two...???

Do you pick the Box of Reality...??? Because it's the norm... What you've known, and can rely on???

Or do you choose the Box o Sweets...??? Never quite sure what flavour you'll get, but it's an adventure all the same...??? With every bite, you're experiencing something exotic, new, and refreshing...

***Well, real life's been a pain... I have a job interview set up for tomorrow... Had another yesterday, and another Monday... ((a girl's gotta have Funds right???)) Tons of extra activities too... But they're all kind of cutting into my Sugar World's time...

I was supposed to go on my second date with Mr Big tomorrow night... But, because of my busy RL, there was a conflict... It makes me sad, because I really did want to see him again... But reality will be there when he won't be... We'll see if he understands...

Hope all of you wonderful women don't have lives as stressful as my own... And that the sweet, sticky, and sugary gum drops rain upon you from above...

-CCSB

It's All Coming Back To Me Now...

I had my first date with the gentleman i mentioned in a previous post... I think I'll call him Mr BIG... We met at a little bar in the city... I was surprised to find a quite handsome man... I don't know why I was expecting some old, greyed, balding fellah with a portable oxygen tank alongside him... LOL... (I was....)

***Firstly ladies... I'm not a big drinker... So, wine, beer, etc... Not really my thing...***

Overall, I had a nice time... He seemed more nervous, though, than I... The atmosphere was relaxing, and fairly young... We talked about our past endeavors... The good and the just-plain-ugly... Eventually, it came up--what we were both looking for from each other...

Upon meeting him, I didn't really expect this relationship to be of that kind. I figured it'd be more of a mentor/mentee thing... But I surely cannot resist the offer from Mr BIG... He knows what he's doing, and everything was upfront... He's not into allowances... ((Doesn't that just break your hearts, ladies???)) And I'd be able to meet once a week... I mentioned that I would like an allowance... The terms... to come, I'm sure...

*** I could have sworn, while sitting in a small courtyard, afterwards... That Mr BIG leaned in to try to kiss me... It might have been in my mind... I simply leaned back, and stared at him from above my glasses... What was he doing? Was it a test? Did he really think I'd let him, or anyone else, for that matter, kiss me like that--on the first date??? I don't know... maybe it was the beers... maybe it was the nice, crisp, chill in the air... But that move had me on alert... Mr BIG did get a little touchy-feely after leaving the bar... But I simply assumed he was just excited about the prospect of me...

During the date, he noticed my body... Mr BIG told me he loved how strong I was...
***Ladies, I am a competitive cheerleader, and being in shape is duper important for that***
We talked about the whole Black/White thing... compared being with other races... He loves himself some chocolate... :)  Who wouldn't want some...???

On another note, he did hint at "making it up to me for missing my birthday"... :)  I casually mentioned that a nice, new Nook would be great to have... as a college student... And that having my textbooks paid for would be amazing... Since they're all about $150-$200 each... Just sayin'...

We'll see...

I'm actually glad that we met... I was falling off the bandwagon, and it was a nice way to ease back into this double life... Mr BIG seems promising, and best of all... There's chemistry... So this relationship just might the best of both worlds... Easy-going dates... fun... great chemistry... AND the funds!!!

We have another date scheduled for next week.... Don't know what we're to do, but I'll keep you all posted...

-CCSB

Waiting to Exhale...

Ladies... we are all looking for that sugary perfection... That great relationship(s) where you can have fun, be in great (handsome) company, and still end up with some $$$ in your bank account... And we work ever so hard... Making sure our bodies are in tip-top shape... Blowing our hair out into great volumes... Walking tall in our pencil skirts and stilettos... The double lives we live bring great pleasure and excitement to us... while driving us mad at the same time...

Although I'm on a slight hiatus from my alternate life... My main life has kind of fallen off also... Ladies... I don't have a man... And lately, it's been driving me crazy... Now, It could just be because the weather is getting nicer... Cool and crisp... leaves changing beautifully... But something in me is going crazy... I need a man... Not simply for the dates... but for the sex...

I admit, it has been a while for me... And almost every night, I find myself tossing and turning underneath my covers...

Sugar Circle:
Ladies, let's hear it... How do you deal with lack of sex...? Is it an issue for you...? Are you having sex with your SDs...? If so, how do you like that, compared to sex with normal men...? And, when is masturbation enough...?

-CCSB

An Unexpected Chance...

Well, ladies...

Even though I'm completely swamped with my RL right now... Somehow, someway... I've found myself a new POT... Can't say too much about him now, except that he's very much experienced, and I'm both anxious and nervously afraid to meet him... I have the date set for sometime soon... And being out of the loop has me thrown...

I feel like it's the beginning all over again... So, ladies... help me out... Any tips, tricks, or magic cards for me??? Let's have it... because I'm a fish out of water, and this guy has been swimming around for a loooonnnnngggg time...

-CCSB

I'm Falling and I Can't Find My Legs...

Since school started, back in August... I've slowly turned from the life of sugar... I'm super busy... School is serious this semester... I'm taking 7 classes... Tennis season has been super harsh--bad weather sucks. And being a cheerleader makes it no easier... Not to mention having a job, and I'm currently looking for another...

I miss the sugary life... I miss sitting on my bed indian-style and searching on my laptop through profiles... rifling through messages... and updating pictures... for HOURS... I miss the nervous excited feeling right before a date... Or the promise of another bill being paid... I miss reading the blogs of you fabulous women and men...

*sigh*

Maybe when it gets a little later in the semester... Perhaps in the winter, I'll get back into the life... Right now, though... I just can't... If I could pause time then sure... But, for now... I'll just be checking in every now and again...

-CCSB

Books, Pencils, Pigtales, and Short Skirts...

RIIIIIINNNNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



It's back to school for my sweet, chocolate ass...
I'm back to crowded hallways, starving in the library, long lines, and sleepless nights... But it's what I've got to do...

Basically, I'm the "all achiever"... Thus, I'm sticking my head in anything and everything I can possibly get into. I'm one of the captains of my college's competitive cheer squad, on the tennis team, in the pre med club, french club, art club, student activities club... I'm working two jobs, and looking for another, and finally I've decided to load myself with 18 credits for the semester (the maximum). Saying "I'll be busy" would definitely be an understatement. But, this is where, and how I thrive. Somehow, I just do well, with all the pressure... And it'll give me a break from my SB goals...

Not to say that I've let it go, because I haven't, but I think now, that this should be good for me...I need to firstly get me under control, before I go tackling this... I need to have only the best head on my shoulders, so I can be at my best when trying to snag me a good SD... I have been searching still... But not as viciously as before... I've signed up for a few more sites, but I'm taking it slow... I've only been checking my email 1x a day... compared to the 15-20x a day I used to...

***
I have, however, been on 7 dates in the past week... Not with Pots... but with guys that I figure I'll practice on in the meantime... I've decided to take some advice from the lovely Creole, and see if I can work my magic on guys closer to my age... If I can get them to get me things, then I'll be all the more ready to get what I want from my future SDs...

Firstly, the TruckDriver... Simple huh... lol... I met him parhazard, in a cab on the way home, and he got my number... We went out last week, and he took me to a nice, chic lounge/pool hall... He's older, 36, but I wasn't phased by that at all... He's tall, chocolatey dark, and very much handsome... Shaved head, and a strong back... Single, and no kids... I had a great time with him, but I got a little inkling that he was a little too interested in my body, and not my mind... So I'm going to keep him on a long leash... Maybe, I can get him to pay for my driving test... It's coming up soon, and he offered to give me a few lessons in his nice Audi...

Next we have BrownEyes... I met him at the club, and gave him my Google Voice # when he asked... Surprisingly, he turned out to be a great couple of dates... We went to eat at a sushi place near me... ((my first time with sushi--can't say I love it)) He saw me pushing the food around, and offered to take me to a great burger place... I loved it... He's easy going, and well-off for his age... Only 28... But super polite, and not creepy in any way... I marked him off as a creeper because I met him at the club... We'll see his true stripes of spots soon...
We went on a second date to the movies... That just happened to be by the mall... I offered to pick a movie, and purposely chose one that was a couple hours off... Hence, we had nothing to do but walk around the mall... I stopped into an ALDO, and tried some shoes on... Ladies... BrownEyes liked them so much, he paid for them... They weren't expensive Louboutins, but that made my day... $60 shoes... I'll take any pair of shoes for free... I was so giddy afterwards... The movie was a bore, I'd seen Crazy, Stupid, Love so many times already... On my way home, I gave BrownEyes a little kiss on the cheek, and practically skipped on home... New shoes in hand...

I had another date with another guy, HeadHunter... He actually works at the same hospital my mother works in... but in Human Resources... ((I've already inquired for a position)) He's 36, and cute... Met him on CL.com which is really different for me. Super corn ball, and it's so cute... He took me to Central Park and we walked around a bit... ((thank the Lawd I had flats on))... The stroll was nice, easy going, and it was nice not eating for a change... HeadHunter says he was raised by his 6 older sisters and I was afraid he could read me completely... Afterwards, we went to the wax Museum, on 42nd, and had a blast posing and taking pics with the figures... It was fun, and relaxing to be myself... ((but not all of myself))... I didn't get anything but money for a cab ride back home... But I'll keep him around...

***Going out on these dates were a good idea for me... Just when I was doubting my natural, quick wit, charm, and beauty... they've reminded me that if I don't have confidence in myself... No guy... let alone a SD will...

-CCSB

Dry Spell...

I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave around, and cast beautiful, plentiful showers of sugar upon sugar land...

...Unfortunately for me, this is far from ever happening...

After my last date, with Mr Fix-It, it seems I have less of a drive to fight for this... Perhaps it's because my RealLife id  kicking in... I have tennis practice 6 days a week, for 5 hours a day... And then cheerleading (I am a competitive cheer gal) butts itself into my schedule... That's almost like a part-time job in itself... I'm super tired, and busy... Not to mention, school starts in a couple of days...

*sigh*

It's just a lot... But I don't want to leave Candy Land... I love everything it has to offer, and the excitement. The fact that it's something new... The wonderful and supportive women out there...

I've been trying...but it seems I'm having poor luck in finding anyone lately... No one seems interested... I'm taking the initiative in messaging people... But not much of a bite... It makes me think, perhaps my profile needs an updating... I don't know... I'm just down in the dumps...

I'm also looking for new sites to check out... Any options, let me know...

But, yes... It's all dry and baron here... This cookie needs some warm, sweet milk...

-CCSB

Cump Change: Can't Be Serious...

SO yesterday, was my first date with Mr Fix-It... He was excited... I was tired... A long day at work, I was looking to unwind, and finally get my hands on some sugar... Also, a close friend of mine was celebrating a birthday at a club, and I had to attend afterwards...

I got dressed, and walked over to a friend's house... Waited there for him, and when he called, I headed outside to meet this POT SD. Problem #1: His car looked nothing extravagant. I know not all SDs have money oozing from their pores, but I was expecting more than I saw... Couldn't even take it to the car wash...??? In the car, I asked if he'd mind, driving me to the other location instead of my house... He agreed... So, I told my ride to go on without me. Nonetheless, we rode on to the location, which was packed on a Friday night... I was nervous, but figured, "Hey, no need to stress... I look good..." ((which I did)).

Walking in was a spectacle on its own... People, black & white, old & young, snapped their heads in our direction and I could feel all their eyes burning into my skin... Here we were, an older caucasian gentleman and a thick, beautiful black woman holding hands together--I can only imagine what they thought of us... Problem #2: Every time there was another person near, Mr Fix-It would grab me close and make a show... I mean, I understand wanting to show me off, but it was a little excessive... The server came to me, and asked if I wanted a drink, and before I could respond, my POT grabbed my hand, and pulled me away--ordering what he assumed I wanted...

We played pool for a little under two hours, and chatted flirtatiously... I'd never played before but after the first game, and a after knocking balls off of the table, I got the hang of it. Mr Fix-It was in awe at how quickly I figured out how to create angles, and bank balls... He also couldn't take his eyes off of me...

Eventually, we got to "the talk"... I already knew that he had two children, both of whom he was paying child support for, and since he was relatively a nice guy--and didn't have that creeper feel about him--I decided to drop my set price down...SIGNIFICANTLY... When I told him my requests... I could feel him drawing away... He simply told me that he paid just as much in child support for each child, and proceeded to go down his monthly list of expenses he already had... I knodded and "uh-huhed" but didn't really care... If he wanted my company, I wasn't going to go any lower... The spark we had on the date had floated out of the building... Mr Fix-It was quiet, and I could tell he wanted the arrangement, but was fighting himself about my allowance. He eventually came out and admitted that he wouldn't be able to afford that. I knodded, and was polite... the whole... "We can still talk, and such"... I was livid on the inside, I had a few things I needed him to pay for for the month, and now this???

Problem #3: Mr Fix-It slowly got back into the date, and suggested that I hold up my end of the bargain, for not even an allowance... But just the minimum financial support... -_-
He was serious... So? Now I have to pretend to like you, let you hold my hand, and hold me close, inhaling your disgusting cigarette odor, and staring at your bad teeth and beer belly, when I could be going home with the server ((who was gorgeous, btw))... and do it for free?!?!?!
**Have to quote Creole here "My time is precious and if I wanted to give it away for free I'd go find a hot young sexy muscular Brazilian or Italian guy to lick chocolate off my body…not some old fuddy duddy married man."

On the drive back, I danced around the idea of having him pay for the basics... But I couldn't swallow the idea of giving him the premium for paying practically nothing... If he wanted all of me...my time, and affection, he'd have to give all I wanted. I gave Mr Fix-It the directions to the party, I was supposed to head over to... It was in the city...

Problem #4: Mr Fix-It looked at me, and said "I'm not driving you into the city..." I was shocked... Now, I had no way into the city, and I HAD to be there within the hour. I called a cab. He asked me if everything was alright, but I was already over him... I told him, I needed $50 for a cab to the city, and he practically jumped out of his seat. WTF?! He pulled out a limp, old leather wallet.... faded, and patchy... and fumbled around with some singles, fives, and some ((I swear)) coins... I sat there and shook my head... He pulled out a $100 and I relaxed a bit... Ready to accept it, but Mr Fix-It was hesitant... He went on about having not much on him... and I thought "That's why the great God invented the ATM--hello?" Fumbling around, and checking his lint filled pockets, I watched him... Mr Fix-It refused to give me the $100, and instead, handed me a crumpled $13... I was shocked, but tried to maintain my composure. He was dead serious... He apologized, and talked about something, but all I heard was "blah blah blah... I'm broke... blah, balding, blah..."

Problem #5: When he pulled up to my corner, He turned off the car... I don't know why, since I had to go... He leaned over and tried to kiss me...He got a peck on my cheek... This n***a then had the nerve to ask for another, "with tongue". Mr Fix-It was fucking out of his mind... Firstly, you can't afford my already lowered allowance asking... Then you can't even pay for my cab fare--AFTER YOU ALREADT AGREED TO TAKE ME TO THE PARTY!!! And then you think you deserve to slip anything of yours inside of me... Get the fuck out of here...

I left the car, and waited for my cab... Not only did I get there late, but I ended up having to pay for my admission to the club, and then pay for my cab... This date, if anything cost me. Since when was this how it was supposed to work...?

Mr Fix-It

Mr Fix-It has definitely lost it with me, but I'm going to hold on, just a bit, to see if he'll pay for a quick fix... After that... His ass is Grass!!!!

Ladies... smfh... lol

-CCSB

Sugar Dating & The Rules of Exclusivity...

Mr FixIt

One of my main POTs, Mr FixIt, has been on my mind as of lately... He's a very kind man, and seems like a genuine and great guy... However, there's something telling me that he's got another side to show...

Mr FixIt has already told me how he feels about exclusivity... He feels that if I am his SB, then he should be the ONLY man of interest in my life. He literally calls me everyday--somtimes 2-3 times a day... I understand that he may be lonely, or just need someone to talk to--and with that, I am alright... But he often asks what my day will be consisting of... Who'll I'll be spending time with... When I'll be back home, etc...

I feel that these questions are questions no SD should be asking me... Especially since we've already established and agreed on the term that this would be a NoStrings relationship...

An example: I was on the phone, listening to Mr FixIt talk about his day, when I got another incoming call... I excused myself, to asnwer it, and found out that it was one of the guys I am dating on the side... I really wanted to chat with him, so I clicked over to Mr FixIt, and said I was sorry... That I had to take the call, and that I'd call him back... He said it was alright, but then asked me who it was... If it was a guy... and if he was important to me... He then reminded me that it was he who would be paying for my needs, and not the guy I was hanging up on him for...

I know that some SDs want exclusivity, but I doubt I can do that... Currently, I'm seeing about 3-4 different people, and even if Mr FixIt supported me in everyway, I wouldn't want to stop seeing those other guys... Am I wrong to want a life outside of out relationship? or must I conform to his rules for his sugar...???

-CCSB