And Unexpected Find...

***Firstly, a quick apology about being so MIA... I've taken a little break since losing both MD and Traveler withing a week... It SUCKED...

So, I focused on school... Quit my job, also... Which also sucked... LOL

I've been having it kind of hard, to say the least...


***I've been taking an advanced figure drawing course this semester, and for a few months, we were drawing from live nude models... Needless to say I found my new potential SD... I'll simply call him Mr Model...

Now, don't go imagining Brad Pitt or Djimon Honsou... He's more of a Kevin Costner... And was he packing... I was very much surprised to see his package up front... ((Don't you hate a SD that claims to be a master magician in bed, but has no wand to do anything with...???))

In the class, I kept it very professional... I didn't talk to him, and stared as any art student would... But when he would change poses... His back and arm muscles would contract in the sexiest way... I always found myself getting a bit excited... He was so handsome... Blonde hair,  buzz cut, blue eyes...  Clean shaven.... Just lovely... Got the drawings to prove it...

After his last session with the class, ((which ends around 11pm)) I saw him walking around on campus... He couldn't find his way out, and being that I figured I wouldn't see him again, I flirted, and helped him find his way... Surprisingly, he reciprocated.. It was a nice way to end the sex I'd had with him in my mind... LOL

Weeks later, with Mr Model out of my mind, I was walking in the caf with a friend, and stopped dead in my tracks... it was him, sitting there with a salad... I walked up to him, and introduced myself... He remembered me... We exchanged information, and boom!!! We were sending short, flirty emails and such... ((I made sure to give him my SB email and name   ;)  ))

Somehow the whole SB/SD thing came up, and he was surprisingly cool about it... He said he'd never been the sort of relationship, but was open to the idea... ((not that I asked him for one))... He asked me out, and we ended up going for drinks at a bar... He was so damned handsome... We had a good time... And at the end of the night, he handed me a little goody bag... It was a nice surprise... I wasn't expecting anything from him... I never open these things in front of the guy, unless he asks, so when I was on the subway back home, I was SHOCKED to find a rolled wad of $$$ wrapped in pretty pink tissue paper...

Ladies, I mean... SHOCKED!!!!!

((funny thing was it was almost what I asked for monthly--hadn't gotten that from MD or Traveler in all the time I put into them))

I shot him a super sweet email that night... We have our next date for next week... Looks like I'm back... LOL

I'm not sure how to approach this though... I won't go into this one with my list of demands just yet, but I'll keep it in my bag just in case...

*sigh*  :)

***On another note... I got an email from a 'journalist' that was interested in interviewing for in internship... She wanted to get a better understanding of the Sugar Life and read my blog... She wanted to do it via Skype... I offered to answer a few questions, but through email... Just wondering if any of you got the same requests...

It feels good to be back, reading about what you all have been up or down to...

*CCSB

Man O Man...

I have been so into these older men for a while... I've forgotten what was so great about the younger college guys around me...

I went on a casual, friendly, non-sugar date this past weekend with an old fling... And did I have fun... We caught a movie, ate great dinner, and had amazing sex... I don't remember the last time I climaxed like that... I didn't pay for a thing, but it made me feel so good to let go of trying to impress someone...

It was nice...

Not to mention he made me cum so hard...    *sigh*   Great sexual chemistry... And I won't cry if the guy doesn't call me next week, either...


CCSB

I Wonder...

 I was sitting at my laptop, working on some advanced physics homework, and a thought popped into my head...

I thought of Mr MD and how things just ended with him... I remember reading another SBs blog, and she was saying something like "I don't have to have sex with my guy... blah blah". I had sex with him... but it was completely my choice... I didn't feel pressured into it, and I didn't feel obliged... It was casual... NSA... Within that same week, he poofed... And then came back with the whole 'it's not you, it's me....' I mean, couldn't I, at least, have gotten the rest of my allowance for the month before you jump ship...??? Damn, he just hit it n quit it... I remember the first time we had a date, Mr MD and I... He mentioned that he hated giving everything up front for the chance of the person flaking...  *kudos* and I'm just pulling the wool from my eyes...

On another note... Two of my closest friends want in... I've told them a couple of stories here, and there... and somehow, they both, within the same week have asked me to help them get into it.... Not that I'm so darned successful as a SB...  ((ahem Mr MD)). I'm not sure how I feel about it though... Tell me ladies and David... Should I help em get started...? or no...


CCSB

Ugh.... Sugar Woes

Mr MD shot me an email this evening... He's back in town, which I am so happy about... I have missed him in these two weeks...

But he basically broke things off with me... His RL is getting to be a bit much, and he needs time to get his life sorted... or something like that... idk

It sucks... I've lost both of my guys... and haven't gotten anything close to what I was asking for...   **sigh**

SO.... I'm back on the hunt... Messaging guys, emailing, first dating... -__-  I'm 'loving' it...

broke, broke, broke...


sooo not fun...


CCSB

Bye Bye, Blue Bird...

So, things with Mr Traveler and I are pretty much done...

It's been a while since I've emailed him, and I guess he was beginning to feel it... He was so used to getting two or three flirty, cute messages a day... Perhaps he wanted something like an emotional affair since the distance was a bit much for the two of us... No offense, buddy, but that's a freaking commitment... AND! I wasn't getting anything close to what I was asking for... No allowance, and gifts randomly... *sigh*

So, it's been about 2-3 weeks of neglect for him... I'm busy, and trying to do my own... I got an email from him this morning and he sounded like that thing... "whah.. whah...whahhhhhh"

     He didn't want things to simply 'fade' and wanted to know if the distance was too much for me, and if I wanted to find someone closer...

Look, the distance isn't an issue for me... He was the one traveling... And what made him think I was being exclusive to him...???

I simply told Mr Traveler that we should play it by ear... That he was a great guy, and that I genuinely liked him ((I do...)), but since the distance was a big factor for him, that we should meet only when he would be in town... Au lieu de trying to plan and schedule trips, etc... Our schedules are practically impossible, and it's less stress on him... He agreed and that was that...

Basically, this means, that we're done... I don't have to respond to your emails as much... I'm surely not getting that allowance I asked for... And that we'd only meet when he was in town, and it fit my schedule...

Whatever...


Mr MD is out of town... I kind of miss him... Kind of... He should be back soon... And then we can continue our 'thing'... I haven yet to receive my full allowance from him... Nobody likes tiny installments... I'd like a "large, lump sum"... cash... But, we'll see... Cmon back to me, MD!!!



CCSB

Finally...

I had my 3rd or 4th date with Mr MD this past weekend... Unfortunately, I was 45 minutes late...
*sigh*
I sooo need a new watch...

We met in the city, and walked over to a tiny cafe... latin music, good food, good drinks.... Not so good chocolate cake... LOL

He actually gave me a small portion of my set allowance in the beginning of the date... Less than 1/3... I was surprised, but still, dissappointed... Later on the date, i asked why only the amount, and he insisted that I said that I wanted the allowance in the set increments...  * If it were up to me, I'd say 'Let's have it all at once, or in two installments.' * Still, I had a good time... Somehow we ended up having sex, afterwards... I was never really one for receiving oral, and he didn't prove to me otherwise... I just laid there... Watching Caesar Millan snapping at little dogs... The sex was...   eh ... But hey, sexual chemistry can be worked on... We are supposed to meet 1x every week, but this coming week, he won't be in town... I was sad... Partly because we always have a nice time, and partly, because I wouldn't be getting another part of my allowance...

((Does this mean I get double the week after next? How do I ask for the rest of my allowance without sounding too much 'aboutthemoney'?))

Valentine's was pretty uneventful for me... School, etc... I had lunch with my two closest friends--which was fun... I'm not into the hype, I guess...

This week is pretty dry... I'm almost broke after buying some more supplies for school...

Mr Traveler is trying to get to Ny next week for super short stays... I think two random days during the middle of the week... He asked if I might be free, but going would compromise my studies... I have classes those nights, and would have to miss them in order to meet him... I haven't yet received much from him... In fact, the two of them, MD and Traveler have given me about the same amount--go figure--since being involved. I don't think I can put my GPA on the line for a little money... Especially if it isn't what I'm asking for...

xoxo

CCSB

Update: Dates & Such...

So, I had my second date with Mr Traveler earlier this week... it was beyond long over-due... I added to my horrible attendance streak, and was 2 HOURS LATE!!! ((so embarrassed to admit it)) I swear the craziest things happen to me though...
He wasn't angry though... His hotel was near the movie theatre we planned on going to... Since I was late, we missed the show I wanted to see, and opted for Man On a Ledge... I was surprised that I liked it...
Mr Traveler, despite my expectations, was a complete gentleman... He didn't make one move on me... It was weird, because I was expecting the worst... Just like before, he gave me a little goody-bag, that had more Visa Gift cards and some chocolate...

((people, I am a serious chocolate lover))

It was nice, but at the same time... I can only do so much with a gift card... I prefer cash... Maybe I'll let him know that for the future... if we have one... I didn't end it with him, like I planned... *sigh*

 I know that Mr MD and I are supposed to have something going on, but I have yet to receive anything from him, and don't want to burn bridges before counting my eggs... ((or one of those old proverbs--lol)). At the end of the movie, we hugged, and I skipped on down the subway steps... for my 2 hour ride back to the burbs...

I have another date with Mr MD tomorrow... I always make it a duty not to be late with him... He's a stickler... lol... We're supposed to go and check out a new cafe... I pray chocolate is involved... I also hope to get part of my allowance... The last date we had, last week, was great... Cute, but crowded dessert place.. Nice drinks... but it ended weird... He said he had my sugar, but ended up not giving it to me... -__- I was so angry about that... Hopefully, I get it tomorrow, because I am BROKE!!! textbooks have practically eaten up everything I have...

On another note... I've been so freaking horny as of late... One of these men better get on it... because I just might move on to younger, cuter things...

CCSB


i will not be late
i will not be late
i will not be late
i will not be late

Sugar Frustrations...

So, you all know what I'm looking for. Nothing out of line or over the top... I'm not asking for my SDs to buy me thousand-dollar shoes or to make a down payment on a house for me... I'm a simple girl, with simple needs... I make that all clear early so that there's no room for misunderstandings down the line...

But what do these men want from us??? Is it just our company...??? Someone to talk to...??? A beautiful young woman to spend time with after a hard day at work...??? The opportunity to make us giddy with excitement with their money and gifts...??? Potential life partners...??? Or, simply sex...???

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Lately, this has been a big question for me... What Do These Men Want? I should just call Mel Gibson and ask, but I'm sure he's busy... lol

I don't know about you all, but I find that talking about things... Being open and honest with your feelings and thoughts early on only helps in pretty much every situation--Sugar relationships, specifically... We enter these things with wants, needs, and expectations from each other in the back of our minds...

When I'm meeting a potential SD, I do my best to let him know what I want... And I only expect him to do the same... Tell me what you want, and I will do my best, if I find it within me, to get it done for you--with a sweet smile on my face... You are the one who's paying for my time and attention, no??? If you want a back rub every week, tell me... A shrink--to listen to you moan about your life, sure... ((though I am far from qualified)) If you want to have sex with me, let me know... If you're an attractive guy, and things feel right, okay... But don't simply assume, I'm thinking it... Maybe it hasn't crossed my mind... How can anyone know what you want if you don't specify it for them??? And you can't be angry with a girl for not guessing the right card...

 Being new in this world is daunting enough... I'm learning quickly... but I'm no mind-reader... Open your mouth, and tell me... We'll talk about it, and move on from there... You never know, I might just be into it...



Men...smh



CCSB

College Sugar Baby...

We all want the Louboutins... The Coach bags, and Versace dresses... It's the lush and expensive items we see when flipping through the pages of VOGUE that make our mouths water with lust... And it's these men that can give them to us... You bat your pretty lashes, and flash a bashful smile... Their hearts melt and their cash comes out...

Well, NewsFlash!!!

I'm in college, and all I need, besides a good amount in savings is:

• My damned textbooks paid in full
• My cell phone bill paid on time every month
• My student loans paid for
• Pocket money for sudden expenses
• etc...

...nowhere on my list does it have shoes, or hand bags, or any of those other material things... I'm practical, and know what I need to survive right now... Like I said before... I damned sure cannot pay for that $200 Chemistry textbook with a pair of pretty shoes... Maybe in the future, when all of these college expenses are out of sight, mind, and out of my account... I'll take it there... But for now... I'm just a college gal looking for a guy to get me through the financial burdens of school...  

Is that too much to ask...???

CCSB

ps: I can't lie... There are some things that would simply place the cherry in my Manhattan..

• The rose gold Michael Kors Large Runway Double Glitz Watch  ((a girl's gotta have a quality watch to get to her classes on time, no...???  :}  ))

• A Nook Tablet, along with all of the accessories  ((nobody wants to have to carry around 5 textbooks all over campus, do they???  ))

:}

Letting Go...

Mr Traveler is such a nice guy... I can tell he seriously just wants someone to talk to... A beautiful woman to carry around like a nice handbag...

I can also tell he just wants to get in my pants...

-__-

...can you say "Not Happening???"

I was advised to let him off easily... To simply let him know that it wasn't in our future... Not to waste his or my time... But I don't know... He's such a nice guy, and I can't help but wonder what he'll gift me on our upcoming date next week... No matter what, even if it's my full allowance, cash ((a girl can dream, can't she?)), I'm going to end it with him... I sent him an email today, explaining that I didn't see us being together sexually... He simply said "I'm patient..."

Either way, buddy... it'll never happen... There's absolutely nothing attractive about ya... maybe your gifts are... but still, it's not enough... 

Also, since, MD and I (I've renamed him) are soon to begin our sugar relationship together, I feel I should focus my attention to one and the more beneficial relationship... Mr Traveler has only given me a few hundred bucks, flowers, gifts, etc... It was all lovely and everything, but I can't pay my soon due phone bill, or buy my much needed Chemistry text books with flowers and chocolate, can I...???

MD is simply offering what I want... So, I'll put my time and energy into someone who is going to benefit me... Besides, he's better company, and I feel much more comfortable around him...

Off to class... Learning about 'The Dancing Molecules'

-__-


CCSB

Trying Something New...

Just got in from a nice lunch date with an old potential... I've always liked him, and somehow messed it up in the past... Looks like we have an agreed to get the arrangement going... I'm excited and glad... At least I like the guy, and he's actually kind of attractive--even though he seems extremely insecure about himself... We "officially start" next week... Nothing more to be said about it... for now...

:}

CCSB


ps: I officially love Cosmos...

Cover Your Tracks...

The first rule of it all... Anonymity...

How could I have been so stupid to have not made sure...

I just asked Mr Traveler to send me an eGift card and to my surprise, he did...

Quickly after, he sent me a link to my other blog... My personal blog...

You cannot imagine the horror I felt... He added, "You're so cute..." Omfg... I deleted it so fast... I figure, if I want to do this sugar thing for real, the other blog shouldn't compromise this...

I've done a Google search for myself, and found so many things. God damn this internet saving everything you've ever done... I've just deleted like 6 accounts, a blog, and privated about 12-13 photo albums...

ugh...


***kudos to me, though, for having the guts to straight forward ask him for the card... Can't wait to use it...

CCSB

Honest Effort...

So, I've been going on with Mr Traveler for quite some time now... We've been in contact since early December ((I think)) and it's been a constant thing... Every day, an email, or two... We're getting to know each other more... It's nice... It doesn't feel like a 'transaction'... ie: my time for your money... I think it's kind of nice to get to know someone... to genuinely like their personality, and their company... I mean, isn't that how it's supposed to go??? I think so... It makes the apparent differences in age, race, and financial level less obvious and 'in your face'...

Nonetheless... I declined his invitation to go to Philadelphia with him... He was sad, I could hear it, but I made sure to be strong on my decision... It's just too early. We don't know each other that well. I would be lying if I said that I completely trusted him 100%. I'd have to go out of my way to get there... I wouldn't feel comfortable staying over with him... The list goes on... No hard feelings buddy... I just can't...

We have our next date scheduled for the mid of next week... I suggested we do something physical and fun... I mean, I like the whole restaurant/bar thing, but I'm trying to start my Master Cleanse and new fitness regimen soon, and I can't begin to do that if I'm downing Apple Martinis, Manhattans, and chocolate cake... ya know...???

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Basically, here's what was on my mind... This has basically turned into an everyday thing... The constant communication... I feel like he's a priority... I don't mind, honestly, because he's a nice guy... But I can't help but wonder:

  "If you don't want to give me my allowance because you feel we don't meet up enough, why should I have to give you my honest attention, everyday???" 

Is it the same? I think, in a sense... For obvious reasons, we cannot meet 1x a week... He lives a couple of states away... But 2x a month + the everyday communication should = enough of my time and attention to receive an allowance...

I don't know... Tell me what you think, ladies, and David...

1. Do you all think that I might have something here? Am I right? Shouldn't I be rewarded more than a couple of light gifts on every date when I am giving more than expected? 
2. Am I wrong? Should I not focus on this? Does all of this effort in building the rapport eventually pay off in the long run? I mean, this is the first time I've had this long of a 'relationship' so far...
3. Do you think it might be a good idea to bring it up? And if so, how might you suggest I do this without potentially messing up any good I might have already built? If not, why...

Whew... I haven't typed that fast, that much in quite a while... Being a chemistry major in college, I don't spend much time working my fingers like that... School starts in a week, and I feel like it was only a week ago that I was crying for finals to be over... *sigh*

I need some chocolate, cookie dough, with fudge swirls ice cream, with chocolate sprinkles atop...

-CCSB

Lesson Learned...

After my first date with Mr Capoeira... things seemed good... We'd talked about our expectations, we got along, and the sexual chemistry was so apparent...
For our second date, we met for drinks in the city... And decided to head back to his place afterwards... He had a nice place... But there were security cameras everywhere!!! It was freaky... He explained it was because he had lots of valuables... I didn't spot anything worth 7-8 cameras... but whatev...

Long story short, we ended up having sex... It was so upsettingly disappointing... It might  have been because he was an inch away from being drunk.. Maybe he was not as good as his looked like he'd be...

7am the next morning... He made a quick breakfast and we chatted for a bit... He payed for my cab ride home, and gave me a little extra, and I was off...

I spent New Year's Eve at home... I was spent and didn't have any energy to even think about going out...

We're still talking, but obviously, after sex, the excitement of the prospect of the arrangement isn't as strong--on both sides... Needless to say, it was a bad choice on my part to 1) have sex with a prospective that early...  2)have sex with a guy that was drunk

I've learned my lesson... And I've already started looking for electric shocking panties online...

*zap .zapzap***

-CCSB

Mr Traveler...

So, after what seemed like forever... I had my first date with Mr Traveler...

I introduced him, a while ago... some time in December, I think... We've been emailing each other everyday, at least 5x a day since then... It felt nice... I was hooked to it... I'd check my email to see his message... I'd write back and then wait some more... I figured, why not take time to build a rapport??? I mean, if the guy feels he knows me, and likes me... then wouldn't he want to gift me more??? If he's getting the attention, then he'll want to reward me...???

Anyway, he was in NYC for a couple days, for work, and it was finally the time... We met at his hotel bar... I didn't know what to expect... I mean, I'd seen his photos, but they're almost never accurate anymore... I wouldn't use the word "handsome"... But he wasn't plain out ugly... In the dim lighting, he was-- ok...

Beer belly, sneakers, and jeans... I could tell he was nervous, anxious and a bit self-conscious about his dress... But I reassured him, it was fine... We sat at the bar for about 2 hours... I swore he was talking so loud, it was scary... I kept fearing that the group of women sitting nearby knew what expected from this arrangement as well...

I'd been battling a fever all weekend, and my throat was sore... I ordered a Manhattan, and it soothed my throat a bit... But I wasn't in the mood for drinking...

In our last couple of emails... He closed off with info on where he was staying... And I ended  with my # and my paypal email... He replied so quickly... "Why'd you give me your paypal? Were you expecting something?" Of course I was!!! You think I shower you with all of this time and attention because you're a great person...???

I was nervous, but so glad that I made that move--and made the hint... After we left the bar, we headed up to his hotel room, for him to get his coat... He wanted to walk me to the subway... He had 3 dozen roses waiting for me, and a little bag stuffed with tissue paper... I'm so not good with surprises... It was sweet...

Inside, there were some chocolates... and some Visa gift cards... I gave him a nice hug, and we headed for the door... The walk to the train, was nice and relaxing... The chill in the air woke me up ((I'd had a long day)) and the bright lights of the city made the air exciting and optimistic...

He gave me a kiss on the cheek, and I hopped and skipped on down the steps into the subway...


Okay... So, he lives out of state, and can't make it to NYC often to meet... He can. however, meet some place else more frequently... He wants to meet again, but this time in another state... He's already asked if I wouldn't mind going out there, for dinner, and back, next week... I have some reservations:

• I've never traveled out of state for someone... Well, I did, with Mr SJP... but... that wasn't so far...
• I'll need to make sure it's an all expenses-paid trip...
• I don't know it I'm comfortable with the idea of it. Where would we meet? What would we do? 
• I'd hope he wouldn't have sex on his mind as something to happen... Sooo not happening...

Let me know, Sugar Council...

   Think I should take the trip...??? It's in a week's time... I don't know...

Till next time...

-CCSB

Baby... It's Cold Outside...

Ahhh.... The winter chill has finally come on down to NY...

Since the fall, we've had lovely, crisp weather... Cool enough to layer, but not cold enough to have to stay in... But since the new year, the weather has dropped significantly... I can't wear tweed mini skirts with tights and boots now... it's too cold for a commuter like myself...

Now, I have to reconsider things... wardrobe, times to meet for dates...

I'm thinking about new options: Heavier coats, thicker tights, new jeans, fuller knit sweaters, knee length pencil skirts, lusher scarves, fitted dresses, wedge booties...

Now, I've got to find one of these guys to take me to the mall...

-CCSB